Emerging Voices CD by Philip W. Leber and Laurel D. Rund

I Blinked My Eyes and My Life Happened

“What you are is what you have been. What you’ll be is what you do now.” – Buddha

Laurel Rund's art, poem and music called "I Blinked My Eyes and My Life Happened"

I first wrote “I Blinked My Eyes” in 2003, reflecting upon how quickly my sons had grown up and how it felt like time had slipped away.  

Then, in 2009, after my husband Marty passed away ~ this poem took on a deeper meaning.   It has been revised to be reflective of my thoughts of today.   Even though the essence of this poem is one of regret,  I now understand that one should stay in the present moment because, truthfully,  that is all we have!

I Blinked My Eyes
The wise ones told me not to do it ~ but I was young and foolish.
Challenges surrounded me
and I wished them away, just wished them away.
I blinked my eyes ~ I blinked my eyes
and my life happened.
Thinking things would be  better down the road.
Suddenly it happened ~
I blinked my eyes and time melted away!
It just melted away.
Gently but so swiftly life unrolled itself ~
time was flying,  slipping away, just slipping away.
Now I miss those moments that are lost forever.
Because I know ~ I wished them away,
just wished them away.
And, as foretold
I blinked my eyes ~ I blinked my eyes
and my life happened!
© 2010 Laurel D. Rund

Please listen to the song I Blinked My Eyes composed and sung by Philip W. Leber.  The poem can be found in the book “Emerging Voices-Living On.”

The Yin and Yang of My Heart by Laurel D. Rund

The Yin and Yang of My Heart

Unbelievable as it seems, it has been four years since my husband passed away. Every year, from January 26th until February 19th, I go into a Bermuda triangle of memories and emotions – his birthday, the day of his death and our anniversary fall on these dates.   You would think grief would have loosened its hold on me, but these meaningful days still haunt me.

I loved my husband for 44 years (notwithstanding all the ups and downs of most marriages).  Today,  I  am blessed to be in a committed and loving relationship with a wonderful man who has graced my life in many unexpected ways.  We understand that we each bring our own life history into the mix, which enriches the bond between us..

Mature relationships are so different from the ones we had when we were young and always looking forward.   In addition, I have the perspective of time and the experience of loss, which has taught me to be grateful for what is here right now in the present moment.

The Yin and Yang of My Heart by Laurel D. RundAnd this brings me to the angst that is the Yin and Yang of my heart.

I have been worried that the love I hold for my husband in my heart would somehow be lessened or lost because of my newfound love.  I wondered if I could love two men, quite differently, in a balanced and peaceful way alongside each other?

“Yin and yang are two sides of dualism. It is the tail and the head of a coin. The tail is yin, and then the head is yang. They exist alongside one another. The head cannot exist without the tail, and the tail cannot exist without the head.  The earth we live on is yin, and the sun that brings us warmth is yang. Sadness is yin, while joyfulness is yang.” (Tao-In-You.com)

At lunch the other day, I shared with a friend, who was widowed after 60+ years of marriage, what I was struggling with.  She looked at me and said “don’t you have room in your heart to love all of your children?” That simple question was an “Aha! Moment” for me.

I immediately flashed back to a memory of being pregnant with my second son and wondering how in the world I could possibly love another child as much as my first.  As soon as he was born, the love for my “second child” enveloped me; and the question of how much capacity I had to love became a moot point.

My heart has room for many loves – my husband, my new mate, family, friends, and pets.  It is a big place with infinite capacity.

In the past, when one of our pets died and we got a new cat or dog, not a replacement, but another pet to love ~ I didn’t worry about room in my heart.  I didn’t worry about losing the memories of that beloved pet.  I am not likening the death of my husband to a pet, but the point here is that I am more than capable of holding countless “loves” in my heart.

Art from the Heart by Laurel D. RundI consider myself very lucky and am grateful to have found a loving man who honors my past, as I do his.  In our sixties, we know that our individual journeys, before we met, prepared us to find the love we have for each other today. We have blended our lives and are building our own history ~ each and every treasured day that we spend together. I have come to understand that I am not being disloyal to my deceased husband; I am honoring the love we had by being open to life’s possibilities.

Today was a watershed moment for me.  The questioning within me has been answered and my heart is open and at ease.

As Rumi said, “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”   I whole “heartedly” agree!

Can We Will We?  written by Laurel D. Rund; composed & sung by Philip W. Leber

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Endings and Beginnings – its metamorphosis!

Endings and Beginnings – its metamorphosis!

My poem and original artwork called Endings and Beginnings were created in 2009, reflecting how I felt after grappling with the loss of my husband.   As I walked on Siesta Key, here in Sarasota, Florida – a calmness came over me.  The sunset reminded me about how life renews itself every single day.  Endings and Beginnings was and is reflective of my attitude about life.

Yesterday,  for no particular reason, I was inspired to transform the original artwork which accompanied the poem Endings and Beginnings in my book “Emerging Voices-Living On.”   My artwork went through its own metamorphosis, just as I have.   Change is inevitable and it gives me a chance to express myself from where I am in the present moment.  As John O’Donohue said There is an unseen life that dreams us. It knows our true direction and destiny. We can trust ourselves more than we realize and we need have no fear of change” 

The song, Endings and Beginnings, was composed and sung by Philip Leber – my life partner.   When he composed the music, he was inspired by both the poetry and the original image.   Click on the link below to listen to Endings and Beginnings – it reflects how both of us feel about life today.

Enjoy!   Laurel

Spiritual poetry and artwork by Laurel Rund called Endings and Beginnings

Endings & Beginnings

When I gaze at a sunset, it fills me with awe.

Watching the orange glow of the sun recede,

it takes me to a place of serenity and optimism.

As sundown arrives, I cannot help but

stand still…be quiet…and bear witness.

Nature’s golden moments and breathtaking beauty

offer the gift of tranquility.

A sunset brings with it the soft whisper

of life’s possibilities ~

the promise of a new day!

When this magnificent source of light

recedes behind the clouds far into the horizon,

and daylight starts to dim,

I know with certainty that life always

renews itself with Endings and Beginnings.

Laurel D. Rund   © 2009
 

 

 

Lyrics by Laurel D. Rund & Philip Leber.  Music composed and sung by Philip W. Leber of Gulf Blues.

Is there room in my heart?

After my husband, Marty, passed away in 2009 one of my biggest worries was wondering  “is there was room in my heart” for another man and would this somehow cause me to lose Marty “again.”  I believed my heart would remain closed to someone else because of that fear.  But with time and the assistance of people I trust, I learned that this assumption was not true.  I now know that within my cellular structure I will  always carry the memory of and love for my husband.

I have come to understand that I have an infinite capacity to love and that one love does not replace another.  I liken it to wondering if you could love your second child as much as your first because the love for your first child is so spectacular.  My heart expanded happily – I had more than enough room to love another child.

The gentle man  who is in my life today has entered my heart in the most unexpected and wonderful way.  He is not threatened by what I had with Marty – he welcomes it as what makes me who I am today.  A woman with more than enough room in her heart to love again.  Unconditional love is just that – it doesn’t rely on conditions to be.

The artwork below was a touch drawing that I turned into story art.  There are many symbols within the picture that speak to me.   But, that’s my story.   What’s yours?

Can We Will We - Emerging Voices by Laurel D. Rund

 

The song “Can We Will We?” is a collaboration between Philip Leber and myself.  The poem comes from the book “Emerging Voices – Living On.” 

The Dance

“Dance, when you’re broken open. 

Dance, if you’ve torn the bandage off.

Dance in the middle of the fighting.  

Dance in your blood.

Dance when you’re perfectly free.” 

Rumi

Art from the Heart

The Dance

 

Sometimes someone dances into your life

and twirls your heart around.

Each step you take together lights up your world.

The rhythm is captivating, the music inspiring.

Your senses are heightened as you each lead and follow.

Everything looks brighter, tastes better ~

optimism is in the air!

And then, the music changes…

it is harsh and difficult to follow.

No matter how hard you try, you lose the beat.

Once again your senses are heightened ~

not to the dance, but to the missteps.

There is a push-pull which

throws you off track, throws you off balance.

Your instincts are whispering…something is wrong.

Nonetheless, you keep trying to get

back into step and on with the dance…

listening and waiting for that tantalizing rhythm

which made your heart race.

As the music fades off into the distance,

your hands reluctantly let go.

In that moment, your spirit is dimmed

and each dancer is left without a partner.

 Once more you begin to search ~ seeking that special someone

who will unexpectedly dance into your life.

Hoping that you will find a partner who is

moved by the music of your soul and

will twirl your heart around !

Laurel D. Rund (c) 2010

“Dance” the song ~ composed by Laurel D. Rund and Philip W. Leber

Emerging Voices-Living On by Laurel D. Rund

Come Home – the song and artwork

Each day presents a new opportunity to come home to your heart!

Come Home song and artwork- Emerging Voices by Laurel Rund

Come Home, the song,  is featured  on the CD “Emerging Voices”.   It is a collaboration between Philip Leber and myself – featuring his magical songwriting talents and beautiful voice.   I could never have imagined any of my poems and artwork coming to life as music … but Philip has done just that!  This song and poem have touched many readers and listeners.  I invite you to listen, read and take a  journey into your heart.  Namaste, Laurel

The cd “Emerging Voices” is available to purchase on CD Baby.   

Come Home – the song!

Open Heart ~ A Place Called Home

I listened to a voice from within which beckoned me to

come home, come home ~ open the doors to your heart.

So I closed my eyes, quieted my mind and asked

the twinkling stars to light the way.

My senses came alive ~ were heightened

when its crimson color and radiant glow came into view.

A door with glittering handles opened easily to my touch,

revealing sunlit clouds and a bright blue sky.

As I strolled through this enchanted place,

the most magnificent sounds and sights greeted me.

I knew I had found my Garden of Eden, my Nirvana,

when I heard my heart whisper tenderly to me …

Finally, finally you are here!

Welcome home, welcome home ~ welcome to your heart!

So, if you hear an Emerging Voice inviting you

to take a journey into your heart ~ go there,

open its doors and discover the treasures that lie within.

You will know you have found your way

when you hear these words …

Finallyfinally you are here!

Welcome home, welcome home ~ welcome to your heart!

Laurel D. Rund (c) 2010

Friendship – the poem and the song

 

 

When Friends Reach Out!


When friends reach out, our souls connect.

Something indescribable fills the air as we speak about

our lives, our successes, troubles or fears.

It is about being there for one another

~ picking up where we left off ~

instinctively knowing what to say or do!

The rules are quite simple.

We open our hearts, tell our stories and,

if asked for,  give or receive heartfelt counsel.

When we speak of life’s challenges ~

understanding and reassurance is offered.

We cheer for each other and revel in delight

when there is a victory!

And, when sharing our visions and dreams,

we encourage each other to go forth

to unearth and embrace our unique potential.

Through the ties of time and shared history,

the circle remains unbroken.

Because you see ~ when friends reach out ~

they are a gift,  a cherished treasure!

Laurel D. Rund (c) 2010

 

Song – “You’ve Got A Friend” – composed by Carole King

sung by Philip W. Leber

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Relationships – Speed Bumps and Potholes


Speed Bumps and Potholes

We knew they were coming.  The road couldn’t…it just couldn’t

be easy and smooth all the time!

So the question lingered in the background of “us”

~ when would it hit and how would we react?

Would we get stuck and break down?

Or travel forward as we find our way?

When the speed bump and pothole stops us,

would we become derailed?

Give up, be lead by our inner demons – taking separate paths

whilst fleeing from fear and pain?

Or, would we get back into gear, moving forward with caution

in order to continue our journey?

Knowing full well that there will be other words or

actions that will slow us down, spin us around, feel like a CRASH!

Only time will tell what our story will be.

But for today, we got through the speed bump and pothole.

We listened to each other’s voice and the wounds,

though fresh and evident, began healing.

The road is clear once again and we know that something as

precious as this doesn’t come around often.

Our story of today is created from a precious and unique metal,

fired by our life’s experiences.

It is that metal which binds us.

Laurel D. Rund © 2010

The song, Bumps and Potholes, composed and sung by Philip W. Leber


Open Heart – A Place Called Home

Each today, well-lived, makes yesterday a dream of happiness and each tomorrow a vision of hope.

Look, therefore, to this one day, for it and it alone is life.” Sanskrit poem


Open Heart ~ A Place Called Home

I listened to a voice from within which beckoned me to

come home, come home ~ open the doors to your heart.

So I closed my eyes, quieted my mind and asked

the twinkling stars to light the way.

My senses came alive ~ were heightened

when its crimson color and radiant glow came into view.

A door with glittering handles opened easily to my touch,

revealing sunlit clouds and a bright blue sky.

As I strolled through this enchanted place,

the most magnificent sounds and sights greeted me.

I knew I had found my Garden of Eden, my Nirvana,

when I heard my heart whisper tenderly to me …

Finally, finally you are here!

Welcome home, welcome home ~ welcome to your heart!

So, if you hear an Emerging Voice inviting you

to take a journey into your heart ~ go there,

open its doors and discover the treasures that lie within.

You will know you have found your way

when you hear these words …

Finallyfinally you are here!

Welcome home, welcome home ~ welcome to your heart!

Laurel D. Rund

The song, Come Home, composed and sung by Philip W. Leber

 

Endings and Beginnings

Endings and Beginnings – Renewal

When I gaze at a sunset, it fills me with awe.

Watching the orange glow of the sun recede,

it takes me to a place of serenity and optimism.

As sundown arrives, I cannot help but

stand still…be quiet…and bear witness.

Nature’s golden moments and breathtaking beauty

offer the gift of tranquility.

A sunset brings with it the soft whisper

of life’s possibilities ~

the promise of a new day!

When this magnificent source of light

recedes behind the clouds far into the horizon,

and daylight starts to dim,

I know with certainty that life always

renews itself with Endings and Beginnings.

Laurel D. Rund

© 2009

From “Emerging Voices-Living On”  – by Laurel D. Rund

The song, Endings and Beginnings, was composed and sung by Philip W. Leber

Endings and Beginnings

 

Endings and Beginnings by Laurel D. Rund

Endings and Beginning – Renewal

When I gaze at a sunset, it fills me with awe.

Watching the orange glow of the sun recede,

it takes me to a place of serenity and optimism.

As sundown arrives, I cannot help but

stand still, be quiet and bear witness.

Nature’s golden moments and breath-taking beauty

offer the gift of tranquility.

A sunset brings with it the soft whisper of life’s possibilities ~

the promise of a new day!

When this magnificent source of light

recedes behind the clouds far into the horizon,

and daylight starts to dim,

I know with certainty that life always

renews itself with Endings and Beginnings.

Laurel D. Rund

Music composed and sung by Philip W. Leber from the book by Laurel “Emerging Voices – Living On”


Can We Will We – Love is Ageless

“They found the springtime of their love
in the autumn of their years”
Can we will we? by Laurel D. Rund and Philip W. Leber

The Poem:

Can We ~ Will We?

You have entered my life in the most unexpected way

and at the most unexpected time.

Dare I believe that, as we open our hearts and souls,

we can be together and yet separate at the same time?

Will we mirror back to each other with tenderness and acceptance?

Can I give myself to you without losing me?

Will we treat each other’s spirit gently, offering comfort

and understanding without judgment?

Can we, with no fear, no boundaries ~ be trusting and quiet with each other?

Will your hold be filled with the strength and tenderness that I so desire?

When we lean back into each other’s arms, can we just “be”?

If I let you into my world, and want you to stay,

will you understand my desire to take wing, to fly?

And, when I return, will you cup my heart in open hands

and be my nesting place?

Can we nurture each other,

while dancing to the rhythm of our unique soul music?

Will we play like butterflies flitting over a

flower-filled meadow, tasting each other’s nectar?

Will we jump into a waterfall together,

experience delight, and bask in each other’s spirit?

Can our relationship be filled with optimism, peace

and the colors of a rainbow?

On this journey called life, were we supposed

to meet and share our hearts?

Can I rest safely in your arms as we breath together and apart?

Has our soul story just begun?

Will you make my heart sing?

Laurel D. Rund

The song, composed and sung by Philip W. Leber

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